How I wish

.. I could be done writing...

but I'm not tonight.

There's always a time for change. Change shouldn't be a scary thing,
and yet, they say everyone fears it. I need to change, and I'm not afraid to
so I want to know why it's so hard?

I'm open enough to change, and I know that I need it.
I'm starting to resent the fact, that I know all that, and still manage to stay in a no progress zone.

Ah.

Where do I go from here?
I feel like I have no place right now.
Uhg.

Let's fix it
I need the world
to spin the right way again!

A Day Of Nothing.

What happened to every day being exciting?
What happened to the past?

I can let my boyfriend rubber band.
I'm not stupid, and believe it or not, I have friends!!

Today, I could have just waited for the phone call, and hung out with somone, or done something productive.

I'll do that next time. Too bad it's so hard to believe since I didn't do that this time.

CH

I'm not always lame!

Okay
I'm not done.

Why the hell to I malfunction when I get confused?
SHIT! I could have just said WHAT the fuck threw me off.
Uhg. Instead of being like: "W-what? I'm con-fuu-ss-ee-d."
bah-humbug.

I'm sorry.
Sorry sorry, all the time.
But I mean it, all the while.

Life is made up of wants and mistakes

It's too bad really,
because oddly enough:

No one wants to make mistakes.

Well, I know I can hardly help it.

I can't judge my worth, because I know it's not very much.
Most of the time, I can't stand myself.

Today though, today my self confidence was wasted.
Absolutely wasted, for the two hours it lasted.